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Day 732 Anger

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Anger as a treath used by dogs sounds like Grrrr….Meaning: 'Don't you dare come near to me. It's a warning messages. If you Don't Stop, then I will FIGHT you. Triggerpoints – any thing and anyone can become a triggerpoint within our environment that Activates the Anger Character within us.  And most often the triggerpoint becomes the focus of our Anger – that which we direct our anger to/towards. The question should be: 'What role triggers play and how, despite our experience, the triggers for anger are actually never the cause for the anger within us.' The Anger Character can be recognized in backchat , energetic reactions and physical behavioral changes.  The backchat of the Anger Character can be recognized as thoughts/ inner conversations of animosity .  A  strong feeling of dislike or hatred :  ill will   or resentment tending toward active hostility, an unfriendly feeling.    1. Animosity directed at something/someone outside of self....

Day 724 pedantic.

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Excessively concerned with minor details or rules; over scrupulous.  I doubt about if my analyses are careful and even painstaking, but never pedantic. Pedantic Wanting everything to be right. Caring too much about unimportant rules or details and not enough about understanding or appreciating a subject.  Selfforgiveness   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting  everything  to be right.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking my view will be correct.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself assuming my view will be correct so I neglect others view.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself assuming my point of view is correct sounds pedantic.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself if I behave pedantic then I it can be I sounds arrogant to others.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself Caring too much ab...

Day 707 relativism.

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Cultural relativism is based on the view that cultures cannot simply be compared with each other. Norms and values ​​would not be universal, but could only be understood from the culture in which they originated. The culture within my family, the norms and values, wherein I grew up was inconclusive. I came to this realization by symply compare the situation. The difference between what was told and the behavior they showed me. What was told to me was you need to behave friendly with understanding. What they showed me in their behavior was arguing and being aggressive. Thefore the energy of aggression became present 'as an expected threat within my mind.' So the environment became unpredictable and insecure. What I experienced was:  * I can't trust the situation.  * I feel threatened.  * I feel scared.  * I feel unpleasant.  * I feel uncomfortable.  * I feel the energy of annoyance.  On the other hand they expected from me to behave Customer...

Day 706 I suppose arguing.

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I started mediating between my squabbling parents because I supposed they will start arguing any moment.  Later, because I already was expecting fight, also in moments when there was no fight, I was within my mind and body prepared to eliminate the negative energy of fight.  Prepared and Acted positive friendly and kindly. Adapted to my idea that I was responsible to take out the energy of quarrel of the air.  I realize see and understand that I was adapted to my assumption What generated the energy of Threat In the form of quarrel, that quarrel May be present suddenly and shows his face.  When this idea pops-up up in my conscious mind then at the same time I remember a image sitting at a table during Christmas. My parents were in the kitchen preparing the Christmas dinner. With every sound I am on my guard and prepared for the fight that will come. But in that moment they didn't Had started arguing. I realize see and understand that I am prepared for, a...

Day 691 I care about noiseless.

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Caring for others, but only with the expectation that the other person will always be there to attend to my needs upon request.  I realize see and understand that the but includes a condition, a demand. From Demanding: 'what you do, you do on my terms'. Those are my terms  Selfforgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself 'what I do, I do to please them'. If I do What I do to please others, then I Stop myself and Breath. I realize see and understand that I want to please others to prevent myself from the experience of aggression and violence, to avoid the energy of anger and to satisfy others. I commit myself that I have to investigate startingpoints of my anger personality.  The anger personality  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I want to avoid my own experience of aggression and violence because In my mind I expect aggression and violence.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myse...

Day 667 Addicted to the energy of Disapproval.

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Or that, for context please see previous blog, according to others, when I do not meet their standards of how I present myself in appearance, according to not follow up others standards, the result will be that I will participate in the energy of disapproval.  Assumption 'If I do not fit into the standards of others I am sure disapproval will follow'. I realize see and understand within the same breath my realization pops-up that Disappointment is the brother of disapproval.  I realize see and understand In moments where I participate in the experience and energy of disapproval, at the same moment I am longing for unconditional approval and positive Support. Which is almost impossible.  When the energy of disapproval accumulates and pops-up in my mind, my mind takes control over my body and Beingness. So to receive approval, is not possible because the energy of disapproval blocks the Entry.   Because the entrance is blocked I can not receive appro...

Day 665 count

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Make something count: * I Take into consideration something could be detrimental as the result the way I think and act. Compulsive thoughts are unpleasant ideas, thoughts, images, or impulses that regularly occur to you. Art: Jan Megens  To fight against your toxic thoughts you must first identify them. It is not a physical fight, but a fight of the mind. Dilemmas which needs some help by understanding.  Are there reasons for toxic thoughts in your life? In my case today 'the Desire for appreciation'. For context please see my previous blog.  Selfforgiveness   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I did not took into consideration thoughts and actions which had detrimental Consequences.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that the energy of toxic detrimental things took over control of my life. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I did not took into consideration.  I forgiv...

Day 629 what is one's motivation for craving.

Craving  the motivation for craving is for example an subconscious idea which controls and reflects words, assumptions and thoughts within your mind. Why am I?’ will have the same influences from our   environment and our, reactions and behaviour to what we observe, try out and copy. We use the examples we follow to   justify why we behave in the same way.  An opinion, idea, a point within your mind, which tells you 'follow up my order', 'be submissive, you need to achieve what I tell', achieve me, as the meaning within craving explains, the examples of the 'craving personalities' Passionate desire.  The craving personality, what your mind Whisperer tells you to do. When you decide to follow up the mind instructor's story, instead staying sober, relapse Lurks around the corner. The story of the craver wich is supporting the Intakeurge, 'the urge to use, take-in', the use of the substance or behavior, compensation for what is missing . The LACK which...

Day 617 my mind is telling me I need to be likeable.

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Was ist in meinem Kopf.  Wie kam es dorthin? Auw Wieha.  What is in my mind How did it end up there?  How did it get and become authority As drive,  A force  As Without,  Within my innocence,  As my body and Beingness  A social code drove me around  Directed  Stand as the acceptance and allowance  Me in a way, In the way as the system that surround me.  Howamiresponsiblefor: CRIME Crime - I filled up the horizon of my mind with alcohol and started Masturbate after I already feelt bad. I feelt not good, I wanted to feel better. I was thinking as being a failure. As a person that causes disagreement between people in the environment, poisoned myself with a little education, as the missing of exercise of persistent exercises, and in moments of the slightest setback, blaming others causes the disagree in me. My mind became the judge, made others responsible, they where responsible for causing my harm.  Caused BY- A...

Day 615 gossip as a tool recognize conspiracy.

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Today I spoke with someone about bad things which happened to me wherefore I blamed several people. I realized I did. Lol. The end result was that I was the victim of the bad behavior of others.  I realize see and understand what resonates, still stands out, as me in me. Like in the me-dia. As a dia picture is spreading the news. The way in me, as my personal pictures, added as mind information I have not face yet.  As the conspiracy of my mind which a became aware of today. I need to watch at those pics and Selfhonest reflect and face them without resistance.  'Just notice, don't fight against it, stand equal with, on a daily base'.  What reflects within as without.  Defenition of Conspiracy A secret plan by a group to do something unlawful or harmful. Something dishonorable.  For example: "harmful claim - a plot that wearing a mask can make you ill" .  The word plot means a plan made in secret by a group of people to do something illegal ...

Day 609 Annoyed

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By indicating how not to do, not want it, you also refer to how you actually want it.  I do Not want Loud noises. I like a soundless atmosphere. What represents the noise in my ear?  I do Not want that one ask me the same question, with the same answer several times. This Because I realize see and understand 'I did not learn a proper way how to ask.'  What happens in my mind before I and when I ask, I'm already experience negative excitement in my body. As the fear That the Answerer will react annoyed. So when I ask something, in the same moment when I ask, so before, I already experience the underlying emotion, the accumulated energetic experience of annoyed. Because I get distracted, distraction Which arose because I was, over and over again In myself thinking, then assumed, because I was repeating my thought 'if I ask the other person something, the one will react annoyed.' By repeating this through in my mind, re-eating like a cow does, eating like Grass, over-e...