Day 732 Anger

Anger as a treath used by dogs sounds like Grrrr….Meaning: 'Don't you dare come near to me. It's a warning messages. If you Don't Stop, then I will FIGHT you. Triggerpoints – any thing and anyone can become a triggerpoint within our environment that Activates the Anger Character within us. And most often the triggerpoint becomes the focus of our Anger – that which we direct our anger to/towards.

The question should be: 'What role triggers play and how, despite our experience, the triggers for anger are actually never the cause for the anger within us.'

The Anger Character can be recognized in backchat, energetic reactions and physical behavioral changes. 

The backchat of the Anger Character can be recognized as thoughts/inner conversations of animosity. 

A strong feeling of dislike or hatred: ill will or resentment tending toward active hostility, an unfriendly feeling.  

1. Animosity directed at something/someone outside of self. 

2. Animosity directed at myself. 

1 Animosity directed at something, someone outside me.

Today I was thinking, assuming several times that the lady I was talking with behaved with hostility in her voice and eyes. This gave me an ill will, an unfriendly feeling popped-up in my stomach. 

Because Were I'm hoping for, instead the experience of ill will or resentment, which gives me the experience of an unfriendly, Annoyed feeling I am longing for friendly behavior of goodwill. 

The problem is, that instead friendliness and being Happy I experience the energy of fear, criticism and rejection. This combination of emotions and feelings makes me angry / frustrated. Were I'm longing for is stable security which cannot arise if the threat of insecurity is not first removed. At the end of the day, it's about more than just safety.

Animosity directed at myself. 

Instead of the energy exprience of animosity within myself I am longing for friendly behavior of goodwill. 

I realize, see and understand because I'm experience a strong experience of dislike I start thinking perhaps it's better that I Stop seeing this person. I avoid her because of my envious attitude experience, that I no longer experience to behave appropriate. 

I realize see and understand that The hurt child in me, instead experience the energy of Joy and peacefulness, The vulnerable child is Aware of his/my demanding and critical voice. This dialogue always dictates me to behave correctly. Now that I experience the energy of envy, the voice in my mind tells me that I no longer experience that I want to behave appropriate. 

So, When someone reacts with an angry attitude, annoyance comes to the fore because I experience irritation because an emotional need for attention or understanding is not being met.

Animosity as a heavy weight in life - symbolized by a person in chains attached to a prisoner ball to show that Animosity can cause suffering. 

Selfforgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I experience the energy of envy. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself because I experience the energy envy the voice in my mind tells me that I no longer experience the need of behave appropriate. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself today within the conversation with a woman the energy of ill will or resentment tending toward active hostility.

if and When I assume its better that I Stop seeing this person, then I Stop myself and Breath.

I realize, see and understand that I need to find out what the reasons are why I experience myself insecure. 

I commit myself that write more post about animosity. 

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