Day 734 desire switched into demands.

As adults, I still get furious/annoyed when I don't get what I want. For context please see my previous post. 

If M doesn't show me sympathy, doesn't ask me: 'How are you doing, please would you like to help me', after that I feel misunderstood. 

Instead, M Gives me (whining) commands! Without consultation or asking questions. This way of speaking 'like army Commanders do', triggers my annoyed personality. 

I am also Aware of the fact that I am longing for an emotional need for attention, for understanding and sympathy. 

Without, I experience irritation. My desire for Friendlyness is not being met. Desire changed into demand. 



Selfforgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed that I behave like the dependent type. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I feel entitled to depend on others. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I expect others to be strong and take care of me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself As a child towards my parents I feelt that I was entitled to get understanding and sympathy. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am longing for an emotional support and assuming 'People owe it to me.' 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am more passive than aggressive. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself assuming 'if someone doesn't take good care of me, I feel like a victim.'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I show my anger in other ways—pouting, passive-aggressive behavior, whining, and the occasional childish tantrum. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking/assuming: 'I need help and others have to give me that help.' 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am automatically assuming and longing for understanding and sympathy. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself assuming /demanding 'It goes without saying that others show me their respect.'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself without understanding as sympathy I experience the energy of irritation. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself If I experience the energy of irritation, then I demand M to give me understanding and sympathy. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I experience the energy of the animosity personality and M doesn't know my demanding needs for understanding and sympathy.

If and when I experience the energy of irritation, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize see and understand If I experience the energy of irritation, then I demand M to give me understanding and sympathy. M doesn't know my demanding Want. 

I commit myself that I also perform and work out the boring tasks. 

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