DALKondersteuning

I realize see and understand that the reason for all my intentions, anger, frustration and irritation showing me something that reflects me my backchats, assumptions or motivation.  If I assume that you are critical it corresponds with the fact that I experience your behavior as criticism.  Animosity has his Basis that lies in the struggle that I have seen. What I Saw have provided my meaning.  What I saw in the people in my environment. My interpretation of  Drunkards and swearing frustration they showed to me. What I have accepted and allowed as such. As my reality.  How can I speak about my righteousness or sincerity with these examples that I describe as hypocrite. Lol. For context please see my post about animosity .  Selfforgiveness  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I was annoyed with drunkards.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I became annoyed because of people which sho...

As adults, I still get furious/annoyed when I don't get what I want. For context please see my previous post.  If M doesn't show me sympathy, doesn't ask me: 'How are you doing, please would you like to help me', after that I feel misunderstood.  Instead, M Gives me (whining) commands! Without consultation or asking questions. This way of speaking 'like army Commanders do', triggers my annoyed personality.  I am also Aware of the fact that I am longing for an emotional need for attention, for understanding and sympathy.  Without, I experience irritation. My desire for Friendlyness is not being met. Desire changed into demand.  Selfforgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed that I behave like the dependent type.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I feel entitled to depend on others.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I expect others to be strong and take care of me....

So, When someone reacts with an angry attitude, then I experience that annoyance pops-up and comes to the fore ground of my mind. I am this annoyance Aware because I experience the energy of irritation. Please for context see my previous post.  I am also Aware of the fact that I am longing for an emotional need for attention, for understanding without that I experience irritation. Friendlyness is not being met.  Were I'm hoping for, instead the experience of ill will or resentment, which gives me the experience of an unfriendly, Annoyed feeling I am longing for friendly behavior of goodwill.  When M Calls me and asks/orders, 'Where are you, what are you doing?' WithIn this specific moment I already start thinking, after I see her name in the display of my phone, 'she needs something!' M never gives me the I messages. ' I have a guestion.' ' I  need something, I  want to do this or that, please can you help me out?'  Never ever. M only g...