Day 734 desire switched into demands.
As adults, I still get furious/annoyed when I don't get what I want. For context please see my previous post. If M doesn't show me sympathy, doesn't ask me: 'How are you doing, please would you like to help me', after that I feel misunderstood. Instead, M Gives me (whining) commands! Without consultation or asking questions. This way of speaking 'like army Commanders do', triggers my annoyed personality. I am also Aware of the fact that I am longing for an emotional need for attention, for understanding and sympathy. Without, I experience irritation. My desire for Friendlyness is not being met. Desire changed into demand. Selfforgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed that I behave like the dependent type. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I feel entitled to depend on others. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I expect others to be strong and take care of me....