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From What does my view of the other person consist of? What a rigid man you are? You are not flexible at all. Your actions stem from rigidity. You can't behave differently at all. In addition, you always brag about the many activities you do for others.  When I think about this person then I realize see and understand that what pops-up in my mind is that: 'you always put yourself in the center and demand all the attention from others. You emphasize How special you are for that what you do for others, you say I do not say what I do for others because In return I want receive positive appreciation.  Then I start thinking so that's why you don't name this Again and again, over and over again, over the years I know you Identify you self with the personality 'how busy you are with helping others', but why do you name it, At every occasion and during every meeting with fellow volunteers. Why?' Awareness is about the need That I neet to step out of my ...

As adults, I still get furious/annoyed when I don't get what I want. For context please see my previous post.  If M doesn't show me sympathy, doesn't ask me: 'How are you doing, please would you like to help me', after that I feel misunderstood.  Instead, M Gives me (whining) commands! Without consultation or asking questions. This way of speaking 'like army Commanders do', triggers my annoyed personality.  I am also Aware of the fact that I am longing for an emotional need for attention, for understanding and sympathy.  Without, I experience irritation. My desire for Friendlyness is not being met. Desire changed into demand.  Selfforgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed that I behave like the dependent type.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I feel entitled to depend on others.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I expect others to be strong and take care of me....

So, When someone reacts with an angry attitude, then I experience that annoyance pops-up and comes to the fore ground of my mind. I am this annoyance Aware because I experience the energy of irritation. Please for context see my previous post.  I am also Aware of the fact that I am longing for an emotional need for attention, for understanding without that I experience irritation. Friendlyness is not being met.  Were I'm hoping for, instead the experience of ill will or resentment, which gives me the experience of an unfriendly, Annoyed feeling I am longing for friendly behavior of goodwill.  When M Calls me and asks/orders, 'Where are you, what are you doing?' WithIn this specific moment I already start thinking, after I see her name in the display of my phone, 'she needs something!' M never gives me the I messages. ' I have a guestion.' ' I  need something, I  want to do this or that, please can you help me out?'  Never ever. M only g...

I realize see and understand that I assume: 'I am a failure.' 'It will never be good enough for me anymore'.  I realize see and understand that's why I assume that things are never good enough for me. I always have critique how things should go because I suppose 'it's not okay'.  For context please see my previous post.  Allowance   Sounding Allowance 'all I own'. How it's possible that what I can own, in my mind exist as  'all I own' ? Allowance  the amount of something that is permitted, especially within a set of rules, thoughts and assumptions for a specified purpose:  "my baggage allowance". Before allowance got value there was the decision of acceptance of this value.  EQAFE.com  acceptance allowance vs the decision.  Definition of querulous 1: habitually complaining 2: FRETFUL, WHINING a querulous voice Selfforgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking that I am a failure. 'I forgi...

Measures: 'the measure with which I measure myself. I realize see and understand I will be measured with the measures of allowance.  When I participate in the energy of doubt I am longing for some direction. For context please see my previous post at the end I commit myself that I will look at my realization.  'I realize see and understand that Because I can't make a choice because of it, then I experience doubts what I disapprove and then experience the energy of indifference which makes me feel secure to buy and decide to go to the store and then consume alcohol'. I realize see and understand because:  * I cannot make The right choice,  * I experience the energy of doubt,  * which I then disapprove,  * then experience the energy of indifference,  * makes me feel more inconfident * then buying alcohol deciding I go to the store,  * buy alcohol,  * then decide to consume this drug. Selfforgiveness   I forgive myself that I h...

The experience of how things can be experienced and done differently and how to undo the self-creational process that does not benefit self is done in reverse what one once created.  In one of my previous posts I spoke about the energy of failure and then missed the confidence to openly discuss and speak about the things which Worried me.  Which essentially made me apply an adjustment that didn't matched with what I wanted to discuss. I realize see and understand that I have accepted to adapt to instructions which were undermining my development of self-confidence, my experience of how things can be experienced. Selfforgiveness   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself expecting that things should be done differently when They deviate from my desire.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I need to undo my desire.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the self-creational process of desire d...

How can I assess what can practically be applied when I assume and think about what is missing? I also was Reading a post from Victor  'crime is born out of desperation' which Refers To this topic.  Realization   I met someone who has a nice place to live in. The day After this visit she sent me a picture of the place of one of her friends during a dinner. At the picture I saw a trendy kitchen, stylish fitted with equipment manufactured by renowned brands.  The interpretation of those images causes me a lot of mindfuck pop-ups.  The interpretation that poped-up:  (1) these persons are successful ,  (2) they took well care of their business. Successful sounds like 'well care'.  In the same moment when I wrote down my thoughts about ' expensive   stuff ' associated with  well care and being successful, the contradictions as 'opposits', mechanics of the principle of scarcity also poped-up in my mind.  Link In my live tho...

I lack my innocence Beingness because I realize, see and understand that I have surrendered myself with the forces, which I have accepted and allowed myself to exist, as the energetic experience of my mind, which I reflects at my environment.  It was my responsibility to do so.  I realize, see and understand that I developed my own personalities, such as regret, blame, sadness, annoyance, shame and guilt etc. For example the personality of guilt likes it to blame others. Then others are responsible for the pain which bothers me. For the losts I suffer from. That's why I use alcohol. And that's why I neglect to take good care of My physical body and innocence Beingness. Or I neglect, isolate myself from the people within my world and environment. It's OK that I am Aware of those personalities, reflected by the circumstances I live in, my family, the people in the supermarket and others who also suffering from the choices they make and made in the past.  The ext...

The path you take is contained in the views you follow. The view you take is a startingpoint, a choice of acceptance and allowance. An Assumption underneath - 'I will not receive what I need' and the desire 'I want get and receive what I need'.  A cool blog wherein points of Contradictions are Described, in this  color reading, it will be supportive if you like to read. The text about the color reading Demo shows what I mean here. But in my view I always see The opinion i agree on whit what I experience. I've learned to experience it that way. Like a road sign. It's almost impossible to look at a road sign without seeing its meaning once you've come to know it. You usually experience the learned meaning from a road sign, when you see it. That's the obviousness you share with everyone else who also got their driver's license.  As a child I have given my personal meaning to people within my environment. Such as My Female teachers Have given me their m...

Craving  the motivation for craving is for example an subconscious idea which controls and reflects words, assumptions and thoughts within your mind. Why am I?’ will have the same influences from our   environment and our, reactions and behaviour to what we observe, try out and copy. We use the examples we follow to   justify why we behave in the same way.  An opinion, idea, a point within your mind, which tells you 'follow up my order', 'be submissive, you need to achieve what I tell', achieve me, as the meaning within craving explains, the examples of the 'craving personalities' Passionate desire.  The craving personality, what your mind Whisperer tells you to do. When you decide to follow up the mind instructor's story, instead staying sober, relapse Lurks around the corner. The story of the craver wich is supporting the Intakeurge, 'the urge to use, take-in', the use of the substance or behavior, compensation for what is missing . The LACK which...