Day 633 path

The path you take is contained in the views you follow. The view you take is a startingpoint, a choice of acceptance and allowance. An Assumption underneath - 'I will not receive what I need' and the desire 'I want get and receive what I need'. 

A cool blog wherein points of Contradictions are Described, in this color reading, it will be supportive if you like to read. The text about the color reading Demo shows what I mean here.

But in my view I always see The opinion i agree on whit what I experience. I've learned to experience it that way. Like a road sign. It's almost impossible to look at a road sign without seeing its meaning once you've come to know it. You usually experience the learned meaning from a road sign, when you see it. That's the obviousness you share with everyone else who also got their driver's license. 

As a child I have given my personal meaning to people within my environment. Such as My Female teachers Have given me their meaning and I have interpreted it. One of them, After she had forgotten me, waiting outside for the entire afternoon. From that moment my self-evidentness took on a different meaning when I thought of her. I can tell you this now, but I didn't realize it then. I now also realize that the teacher did not do this intentionally. But my meaning became my self-evident, the reflection of my mind which started following this experience as information which I interpreted in my way. 

Which became a sort of morality that the teacher, because 'she did not missed me when I was standing outside', showed to me, I found prove that I was not welcom, not worthy or important enough. I remember the teacher as the picture of a Icecube. 

An icecube which which I associate with a ice-cold facial expression after I was found, still waiting at here while standing outside. When she started laughing and told to the other children of my class that it was not her fault, and It was not here intention that I should stand there outside waiting for here permission to go inside instead standing there, and waiting for approval, in the November cold.

the line breaks 

Waiting for approval and permission.

Every time I Thought of that experience the meaning I had assigned to the physical reaction of the teacher pops-up. This assigned meaning contains the morality I attached to it as the meaning Filtered out of what I missed but also was longing for. 

This experience is like a drawing, 'Drawing a line - - -, causes a Interrupted line'. Years later one sees this moment of interruption. Not realizing that there was this point of interruption. An interruption forced by the acceptance and allowance of the mind which provides us with the information which causes this Break. The break with our Beingness. 

When the line with the Beingness breaks, something get lost.

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