DALKondersteuning

If I would know more than I need I has to Carry more mind. If I ask myself why and where for do I need more knowledge?  The question is if doubt changes into misdoubt than I does not have the Courage to trust myself any longer. Than I does Stop myself and Breath but starts thinking about which step I need to take To realize something in here. Than I start thinking about the fact and experiences myself that I have failed. In the same moment I read the following text: “Self forgiveness means to lay the past at rest and live every breath as a new life. The only reason you fall - is because you have not let go of the past. Push yourself, because eventually the will-power will be enough. I have fallen many times in developing sufficient accumulated will and discipline to change - never give up on yourself. It is those that give up = that Fail. Those that fall often, learn one thing about themselves: And that is that they never give up. I will rather fall often - than Fail....

I realize see and understand that I suffer from negative charged childhood events.  Traumatic events in my childhood, such as being emotional neglected. This Has led to my negative self-image.  Trust in others can also be damaged.  I realize see and understand lost trusting others makes it difficult for me to maintain long-term relationships. On the other hand that which is broken can be repaired.  First question To myself: 'Do I manipulate to stop people from abandoning me'. Yes in my mind I was.  Abondment issues  A combination of hereditary predisposition and childhood events. Research shows that many borderline patients have experienced traumatic events in their childhood, such as abuse, maltreatment or (emotional) neglect. This often leads to a negative self-image.  Selfforgiveness  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I do not Trust in others.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myse...

Maintaining a defensive posture  For context see previous blog. Because I do not like to receive critique, because I recognize the energy of critique as I feel like the way I received and interpret critique. Receiving Means like A lawyer is Defending my case, for example an issue with the government. Still expecting Justice and blame the critique givers because they postponed apologies. For me Is this a matter of principle, a symbol of lost trust. This defending by a lawyer and lost trust in the government is for me also the indication that a parent and close relative undermines my trust and gave me a feeling of not being good enough. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking I'm not being good enough.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking when I receive a text message the messenger attempts to attack me.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am familiar with the energy of aggress...