Day 698 targets hunting.

For context please see my previous post wherein I described that I realize see and understand that Circumstances should change and available for me in the moment when I suppose 'it's not okay'. 

This assumption makes me impulsively switch from decision A to B without Insight into the consequences. So when I suppose 'it's not okay',it should be available the difference which I assume for and therefore have it in mind. 

Context about I am a failure. 

People who are considered “all good” are sometimes referred to as “split white” or “painted white”. People who are considered “all bad” are sometimes referred to as “split black” or “painted black”.

When a person or group of people is "white split" for a person like me, I can just as suddenly "turn black" (and vice versa). Because there is no middle ground - no shades of gray - it is either / or the other. This can be confusing and disturbing for myself and the people around me. 

I realize see and understand that it is possible that hunters where Being hunted themselves in their lives. 

But, those aspects of idealization or devaluation, 'which I notice as Features in others', I notice because I am the one who recognize them, as the characteristics in myself, information with which I observe and then start to interpret things, Circumstances and people my world.

'Give, then it will also be given to you. Because the measure with which you measure other people, you will also be measured with.'

Selfforgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not see why Circumstances should change. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself assuming what should be available for me - in the moment when I suppose 'it's not okay' is possible because of my experience of insecureness. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking and assuming what should be available for me Can sound compelling due to the energy of insecurity which I experience. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I recognize myself as the person acting like "white split" and just as suddenly "turn black". 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I can turn back from black to white and vice versa. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I act like A chameleon that suddenly changes colour under certain circumstances. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I suddenly can turn back from black to white and vice-versa. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I suddenly switch from A to B and vice versa Because there is no middle ground - no shades of gray. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that it is either / or the other. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that my suddenly switches can be confusing and disturbing for myself and the people around me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I could not see the possibility when I blamed the hunters (the switchers in my life) I did not knew they also were hunted in their lives.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I experience the energy of being attacked that I can not see the possibility that they also could were hunted in their lives.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I blame them for attacking me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I experience the energy of attack Then a fight takes place within myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I recognize that the fight takes place within myself then I know that there is A reason for. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when the battle is going on I should look with Compassion then I know that there is A reason for. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I experience the energy of attack then I know that there is A reason for. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I should accept the fact that my energy of attack popped up for A reason. 

If and when I am overwhelmed by the energy of attack, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize see and understand when I can not see the possibility they also could be/ or were hunted in their lives. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I feel like being attacked its because I experience the energy of being overwhelmed by the energy of being attacked by. 

If and when I want wear My chameleon suit, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize see and understand that I am doing well with being honest. 

I commit myself being honest. 

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