Day 631 neglect

I realize, see and understand I avoid situations or people whom I think they ignored me. Then I experience the energy neglectance. Then I decide to avoid contact and isolate myself. When I avoid contact with people, after a while I think 'why don't they make contact with me?' 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I experience the energy of dissapointment because I experience myself neglected. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I experience the energy of disappointment Because I experience rejection and hostility in response to my request.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I Don't go to my doctor because at my request during a Telephone consultation with his assistant who asked my doctor, then he decided my doctor doesn't want to examine my blood.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have a reaction at the fact that my request was rejected without explanation of the why. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself because my request was rejected I experience the energy of hostility. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I decided to neglect the appointment with my doctor because I experience the energy of hostility because he neglected my request.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I give reason after my request was Rejected because I was experiencing the doctors decision as hostility, then I feel sad Because my request is ignored and then think the doctor is not very Cooperative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I think 'my doctor is not very Cooperative'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself because I think 'my doctor is not very Cooperative, I experience myself miserable because my question is of non importance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that my question is of non importance because as my mind interpretation my existence has no meaning as my mind is intertwined with my physical and Beingness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I experience the energy of miserable/unhappy because my inner voice wants to expres/desiring, instead miserable, harmony and happy.

link Pic. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I blame myself that my question, my request for support was Ignored by my doctor.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I isolated myself because my request is Ignored. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in general I am thinking that my requests will be ignored.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when my mind experience 'my request will be rejected' the accumulated energy of rejection gets stronger and external sounds within my environment, I noticed will sounding harder.

If and when I am thinking why do people not contact me, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize, see and understand where I am longing for I can not blame or address at others for as there responsibility. 

I realize, see and understand when others do not contact me I used as reason to avoid them. 

I realize, see and understand that I use a excuus to avoid people, which was The trigger and reason for my many Losses and my lack of contact with social life. 

I realize, see and understand that my social life is getting smaller and lesser, day by day. 

I commit myself that the Threat I want to avoid manifested by my inner experience of Indifference, is my opion, my belief that others are  not interested in me, which is my mind resistance which creates avoidance of social life, which Lasts a long time Now, and so I have to decide what to do with this choice To push people away. 

Support by Desteni.org