Day 689 in advance of my contribution.
In my previous post: 'how thinks can be done' I committed myself in the post to come, this one, I will write about my expection: 'in advance of my contribution I already experience rejection As a result of my contribution'.
I am learning to understand that others can think differently from what I think. As a child I was expecting and automatically think and assumed that others without my explanation could understand what I was thinking.
In elementary school, I had an experience. While and after I was playing in the schoolyard. The experience which I did not understood was that I was punished by my Teacher.
My playing, my Spontaneous contribution to the game with other children, I was punished because I hadn't heard the teacher's instruction that I had to stand in line. Because I did not she ordered me to Wait next to the entrance door of the Schoolbuilding. I waited there for three hours. In the Meantime A happening took place inside the school. The teacher didn't miss my absence. After the happening was over, my Absence Was noticed by her with a smile on her face. The kids in my class sang me a song after I was put on top of a table. The children also laughed while singing.
Selfforgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I in advance of my contribution always and already experience the energy of rejection before I deliver my contribution.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself before I deliver my contribution I already expect rejection.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself because I already expect rejection I don't act the way I promise.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I promise to do the yes and walk the opposite of what I promised.
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