Day 649 indifference disorder personality.

I am looking for someone who is always kind, caring and helpful as a natural way of unconditional being and support.

I realize, see and understand that I am looking, instead indifference for someone without doubt, always kind, caring and helpful as a natural way of Selfhonest Beingness, a person who offers me unconditional support.

I realize see and understand In relation to disorder I am longing for order without the energy of indifference. When I think about Unconditional Support, I compare this to the 'Love' of caring, at the same time Love actually shows me the word indifference, which is the opposite of Love, the energy of indifference which I experience Lately.

Sounding Disorder in my mind. 

The received attention was not in order with where I was longing for. Therefore I always look how people react at my decisions and behavioral choices. 

Indifference lack of interest, concern, or sympathy.

"She/he shrugged, feigning indifference." Another example of indifference is when you don't care or put effort into something.

A boy showing indifference to his diner. 

Selfforgiveness 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when people concern I feel the energy of irritation. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that within myself I focus Primarily on 'Lack of interest.' 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself because I focused Primarily at Lack of concern, In relation to this LACK I experience the energy of irritation and disappointment. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that the energy of LACK of concern and dissapointed stands in between myself and the concern What people are willing to do. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking what people are willing to do I doubt if this behavior is Selfhonest. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking instead act as Selfhonest Beingness what people give and shows me in my mind Their behavior Is based on conditions to receive something back. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinkung that people should act without having in mind to receive something back. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking that people should act without having in mind to receive something back which is Based on their terms. 

If and when I suppose people should act without having in mind to receive something back, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize, see and understand that act without having in mind to receive something back, I first have to let go my opinion what other people should6or has to do, in this blog my expectation that people should act without having in mind to receive something back which is Based on their terms. 

I realize, see and understand I am thinking that people wants to receive something back, is based on my Distrust that people are not sincere. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking that people not behave sincere. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking when people not act sincere I experience the energy of disappointment and hate. 

If and when I am thinking that some one is not sincere, I will Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize, see and understand that the energy of disappointment and hate stands in between me, like a door which is closed, and other people which I experience as the energy and the personality of indifference. 

I commit myself that I first has to stop the energy of indifference. 

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