DALKondersteuning

Disappoint. Disappoint - fail.  Dissatisfaction - discontent.  But what are my Goings-On so that I can experience the energy of satisfaction? My point of view with which I interpret my world sounds like 'I will fail.'  When I read back this words, then I realize in my lower abdomen I experience emotional tension. The next tought from my mind which pops-up into my awareness is: alcohol. Selfforgiveness  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that my point of view with which I interpret my world sounds like I will fail.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself if and when I read back and sound this words then In my lower abdomen I experience tension.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I experience the energy of failure the next tought which pops-up into my awareness is: alcohol. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed that my view of disappoint, is the Results from assuming I...

Getting  Ridicule d implies 'purposeful disparagement.' For context please see my previous blog.  In general I am Expecting that My Beingness will be rejected. My Main problem and inner turmoil arises from my assumption 'when I am involved, instead appreciation, I will be ridiculed.'  Being ridiculed was a tendency I became aware of during childhood. Beings in my environment also ridiculed others. Blaming and criticism was common sense, Others judge when people were different from them. They Gossiped and humiliated people with words. There was no possibility to argue or discuss about those Derogatory accusatory remarks.  In my previous blog I realize the way I treat someone after I asked 'did you already eat', and answered 'maybe'. This answer became the trigger why I got aware of 'purposeful disparagement.' I became aware of my trigger which Not implies that someone else is responsible for what I experience.  What I experienced as my interpretat...

Historically, the term cuckold refers to a man who was unknowingly cheated on by his wife. Don’t get too hung up on that, though. Please see previous blog for context.  I did, so for me the unknowingly cheating is a big issue for me. My assumption resonates with my inner turmoil of insecureness to trust. That's why I want to be around, and I want to achieve that I can check my partner, if it's true what is being told, promissed and committed. I think because of my insecurities to trust, the goals of commitment are negative charged. The risk is include, manifest by my idea, women are cheating, they do not take care for my securenes, they behave indifferent. 'They' , is biased, based at my idea (the idea of alcohol came up now during writing) the insecureness to trust. I realize see and understand that using, the use of Alcohol let me feel secure. Link I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I used Alcohol as a medicine to feel free inst...