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I started mediating between my squabbling parents because I supposed they will start arguing any moment.  Later, because I already was expecting fight, also in moments when there was no fight, I was within my mind and body prepared to eliminate the negative energy of fight.  Prepared and Acted positive friendly and kindly. Adapted to my idea that I was responsible to take out the energy of quarrel of the air.  I realize see and understand that I was adapted to my assumption What generated the energy of Threat In the form of quarrel, that quarrel May be present suddenly and shows his face.  When this idea pops-up up in my conscious mind then at the same time I remember a image sitting at a table during Christmas. My parents were in the kitchen preparing the Christmas dinner. With every sound I am on my guard and prepared for the fight that will come. But in that moment they didn't Had started arguing. I realize see and understand that I am prepared for, a...

Or that, for context please see previous blog, according to others, when I do not meet their standards of how I present myself in appearance, according to not follow up others standards, the result will be that I will participate in the energy of disapproval.  Assumption 'If I do not fit into the standards of others I am sure disapproval will follow'. I realize see and understand within the same breath my realization pops-up that Disappointment is the brother of disapproval.  I realize see and understand In moments where I participate in the experience and energy of disapproval, at the same moment I am longing for unconditional approval and positive Support. Which is almost impossible.  When the energy of disapproval accumulates and pops-up in my mind, my mind takes control over my body and Beingness. So to receive approval, is not possible because the energy of disapproval blocks the Entry.   Because the entrance is blocked I can not receive appro...