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What is a convivial atmosphere, adjective: friendly; agreeable: a convivial atmosphere . fond of feasting, drinking, and merry company; jovial. of or befitting a feast; festive. The Appointment in my youth was, the agreement, arrangement, engagement, rendezvous, my parents learned me. What they learned me then I accepted to create a atmosphere of Conviviality.  On the other hand the atmosphere at home, which I experienced and interpret, for me it was very uncomfortable, uncertain, aggressive, in one word unhealthy.  When I stand equal with the meaning appointment,  which resonates with me then the word uncomfortable pops-up. Why should I believe that an appointment I made will stand? The appointment my parents told me creating Conviviality for the outerworld, for the customers, being good for them, and behind the Front door the opposite of Conviviality was the atmosphere, which I experienced as evil, unnatural, hypocrite and agressive!  Selfforgiveness ...

For context see previous blog about Conviviality . To create, as ordered, a atmosphere of Conviviality I had to be cosy and sociable. The words sociability and Conviviality are used together.  On the other hand the atmosphere at home which I experienced was uncomfortable, uncertain, aggressive, unhealthy. Gezelligheid 'Conviviality'.  So the startingpoint as ordered to create the atmosphere of Conviviality, Was located, in my inner manifested mind energy whereas I was feeling/experienced myself 'very uncomfortable, as the negative energy of uncertainty, as my interpretation of the physical energy of aggression and unhealthy nurturing environment.  For instance before going to school without breakfast because my fighting companinons where sleeping at the time I went to school'.  Unhealthy nurturing, my companions, my parents where both sleeping and where not interested in my emotional care at that time.  I grow up in The environment of Played kindnes...