Day 700 what I want but need.

If we want things which not fit with, then our Beingness innocence tells us some change is requested. Then we need to decide and dare to face them. 

For context please see my previous post and Day 697 Allowance. 

I speak about and write what I have in mind. As a boy I was thinking why do we have borders. I lived in The narrowest part of the Netherlands in the near of both, the borders from Belgium and Germany. 

I realize see and understand the question how can I “just accepting things about circumstances which became a part of myself”. This several parts, borders so to speak, as information influences me. The specific information is also a limitation I impose on myself. 

I realize see and understand that So what I want I need to do first 'dare I get Aware' of those issues. Don't you think? 

I started convincing myself that I do not have the experience that people were really concerned about me. 

I realize see and understand as a child I might have associated the fact that I had noticed that borders are Dividing United Earth into pieces of land like the mind Separates me from my Beingness innocence into my accepted and allowed mind thinking pieces and personalities. 

Pieces of mind that are subject to change. Changes In peace driven by the onslaught of contradictions which are Separating us From each other. Like borders do. 

As long as we do not experience resistance in our contradictions there will be control Because the mind does not experience opposition due to the dissent of another particle/contradiction. By distinguishing ourselves, our paths also get separated in case of deviations. Then we start and hide our justification behind our national flag And its common normal rules and regulations. At the heart of war and discord accepted and allowed common normal rules Are in danger. The self-evident nature of our normality collapses. 

Selfforgiveness 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have experienced traumatic events because The self-evident nature of my supposed normality Has collapsed. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that my supposed normality collapsed As the representation of my normality disappeared.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself because my normality disappears is the source of my crisis. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not see that my normality disappears. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking why we need borders dividing pieces of land like the mind divides us and only thinks for itself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I accepted parts of separation as the several pieces of my mind construction I divide my life and others into. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself my mind construction controls The dividing process between me as physical body and Beingness, life in here in general and with others. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I disagree with others my mind construction controls and divides my life of body and Beingness into parts of energetic separation. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that my energetic mind separation system exists as opinion, decisions, assumptions, emotions and feelings. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that my energetic mind separation system exists as indicator To divide life into contradictions. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I defend my contradictions If they deviate from the contradictions of others. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself assuming “just accepting things about myself” I experience like the very limitation I impose on myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself If I disagree with anyone else, I experience this as an attack of my assumption which I experience like an emotional conviction of disapproval. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I started thinking and observing people like an emotional conviction of disapproval. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I observe people like the emotional conviction of disapproval. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the emotional conviction of disapproval is leading me When I make choices. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the emotional conviction of disapproval is leading me When I make choices. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that the very limitation I impose on myself is telling me that people were/are not concerned about my Welfare.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself because of my emotional conviction of disapproval is I do not see clear enough the specific aspects how welfare should look like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself because of my emotional conviction of disapproval others opinion automatisch Rate as disapproval because of my participation in this system of disapproval.  

If and when I Disapprove other people's opinions, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize see and understand that I do not see clear enough specific aspects how healthy communication should look like. 

I commit myself If I disapprove other person's opinion, then I need to realize see and understand and say to myself: 'I need to stop this aspect of separation in me.'

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