Day 699 Plunged in my mind tought.

I Realize see and understand that assumptions in my head will dictate me. In my previous post I Describe about a few reasons why I was experiencing the energie of insecureness. 

In my opinion insecureness was the reason why Circumstances should need to be changed because I was longing for the change which was not available. This became the design of desire which I experienced energy within my innocence Beingness. 

Within My innocence Beingness I experienced the energy of Desire Then told me that some change was requested. 

Were I was desiring for should be available which became a demand for me in moments wherein I was struggling and afraid. So the mind circumstances within me told that it was not okay. 

But I realize that I did not listen to the signs my body and Beingness told me. This was because I was told to behave In accordance with the rules of the education system parents and the world around me ordered to. 

Preoccupied - concerned. Thinking: 'I Did not earned to receive security that's why I was not receiving and did not experienced that people where concerned about my Welfare. Welfare became warfare. 

Plunged in tought whereas assuming warfare I became concerned, worried, anxious, solicitous, preoccupied, afraid. What I experienced is that nobody really was/is interested in me.

Solicitous about it doesn't matter to them. They ignore me and Neglect me. 

Selfforgiveness 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I did not listen to the signs my body and Beingness told me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that it was because I was told to behave In accordance with the rules of the education system parents and the world around me ordered to. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I accepted what was told to me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself what was told to I interpret as the allowance which I have accepted as the abstract way within my mind. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to behave In accordance with the rules of the education system, which I interpret within my mind, As a result of what my parents and the world around me ordered to. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I made a copy of interpretation As a result of what my parents and the world around me ordered to. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I started thinking they want to ignore and neglect me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I in my mind suggest and so I want that They ignore me and Neglect me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I first need to experience the Pain to experience. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I got used to the energy of Rejection. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking it doesn't matter to them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have noticed my thought 'in wich way am I concerned about others.'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I became distracted, absent, diffuse, absentminded, preoccupied, vague in my behavior because I was thinking if doesn't make sense what I do because what I do will be Devalued.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself because I was thinking I will be devalued by others so let's see what happens when I do not what was ordered and behave in different.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I wanted to experience the clash to recognize what really hits me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I longing for the clash to recognize what really hits me in my mind behaving Negligent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that my mind started behaving Negligent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I started thinking or worrying about something too much. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I started assuming about questioning myself: 'do they really care about me', and 'are they concerned?' 

If and when I think about neglected, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize see and understand that I made a copy of interpretation in my mind As a result from what my parents and the world around me ordered to. 

I realize see and understand when I assume I will be neglected it's about my belief that I was neglected. 

I Realize see and understand that The assumptions in my head dictated me so I stopped listening to My body & Beingness which told me that some change was requested. 

I commit myself that I have to learn how to listen to My body & Beingness which tells me which direction is requested. 

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