Day 696 the way I accepted to measure myself being a failure.

Measures: 'the measure with which I measure myself. I realize see and understand I will be measured with the measures of allowance. 

When I participate in the energy of doubt I am longing for some direction. For context please see my previous post at the end I commit myself that I will look at my realization. 

'I realize see and understand that Because I can't make a choice because of it, then I experience doubts what I disapprove and then experience the energy of indifference which makes me feel secure to buy and decide to go to the store and then consume alcohol'.

I realize see and understand because: 
* I cannot make The right choice, 
* I experience the energy of doubt, 
* which I then disapprove, 
* then experience the energy of indifference, 
* makes me feel more inconfident
* then buying alcohol deciding I go to the store, 
* buy alcohol, 
* then decide to consume this drug.

Selfforgiveness 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I realize see and understand I cannot make a choice which direction I want to go. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I cannot make a choice which direction I want to go and then experience the energy of doubt. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I experience the energy of doubt which I then disapprove. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I blame myself for experiencing the energie of Failure because I doubt, then experience the energy of indifference. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I experience the energy of indifference makes me feel more confident about buying alcohol and also decide to go to the store, buy alcohol and then decide to consume this drug.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the measures with which I blame myself being a failure. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I will be measured with the energy of disapproval and failure. 

If and when I measure myself to be a failure, then I Stop myself and Breath.

I realize see and understand that the measure with which I measure myself, I will also be measured with makes that I experience the energy of doubt, what I disapprove and then assume that I am a failure, which manifest the energy of indifference and then I decide to buy and use alcohol. 

I realize see and understand that The use of alcohol is the starting point of watching porn. 

I commit myself that I have to face the way I measure myself from failure into the energy of indifference. 

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