DALKondersteuning

Learn to be able to discern.  There must be balance, no relinquishment or resignation and yielding. This requires see the quickness of mind with deep inner attention. We must learn to contemplate our actions, our thoughts, our ideals and beliefs quietly without judging, without interpreting them in any particular way, so that we will be able to discern their true meaning. We must first of all know our own ideals, drives and desires, without accepting or condemning them as good or evil. As it is now, it is impossible for us to discern what is true and what is false, what is permanent and what is impermanent, for our mind is so mutilated by its self-created desires, ideals, and evasions that it fails to perceive purely, is capable of. So we must first learn to consider our hindrances and brakes that cause the suffering in a still and balanced manner. How can you distinguish between who is being sincere [...] and who is not? being Selfhonest  Selfforgiveness   I...

Historically, the term cuckold refers to a man who was unknowingly cheated on by his wife. Don’t get too hung up on that, though. Please see previous blog for context.  I did, so for me the unknowingly cheating is a big issue for me. My assumption resonates with my inner turmoil of insecureness to trust. That's why I want to be around, and I want to achieve that I can check my partner, if it's true what is being told, promissed and committed. I think because of my insecurities to trust, the goals of commitment are negative charged. The risk is include, manifest by my idea, women are cheating, they do not take care for my securenes, they behave indifferent. 'They' , is biased, based at my idea (the idea of alcohol came up now during writing) the insecureness to trust. I realize see and understand that using, the use of Alcohol let me feel secure. Link I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I used Alcohol as a medicine to feel free inst...