Day 645 ridiculed
Getting Ridicule d implies 'purposeful disparagement.' For context please see my previous blog. In general I am Expecting that My Beingness will be rejected. My Main problem and inner turmoil arises from my assumption 'when I am involved, instead appreciation, I will be ridiculed.' Being ridiculed was a tendency I became aware of during childhood. Beings in my environment also ridiculed others. Blaming and criticism was common sense, Others judge when people were different from them. They Gossiped and humiliated people with words. There was no possibility to argue or discuss about those Derogatory accusatory remarks. In my previous blog I realize the way I treat someone after I asked 'did you already eat', and answered 'maybe'. This answer became the trigger why I got aware of 'purposeful disparagement.' I became aware of my trigger which Not implies that someone else is responsible for what I experience. What I experienced as my interpretat...