Day 660 thankful.
I lack my innocence Beingness because I realize, see and understand that I have surrendered myself with the forces, which I have accepted and allowed myself to exist, as the energetic experience of my mind, which I reflects at my environment. It was my responsibility to do so. I realize, see and understand that I developed my own personalities, such as regret, blame, sadness, annoyance, shame and guilt etc. For example the personality of guilt likes it to blame others. Then others are responsible for the pain which bothers me. For the losts I suffer from. That's why I use alcohol. And that's why I neglect to take good care of My physical body and innocence Beingness. Or I neglect, isolate myself from the people within my world and environment. It's OK that I am Aware of those personalities, reflected by the circumstances I live in, my family, the people in the supermarket and others who also suffering from the choices they make and made in the past. The ext...