Day 737 my mind instructor.

My mind instructor got me and my Physical Being in her power of control. Her Words and Language telling me to do so.

Act as ordered. In a way to make submissive or subservient; enslaved.

In the Desteni Lite and Pro and being honest, I found the key to unlock some secrets. Missing desires and Oppressed needs. 

Not by hoping and praying, perhaps it may help, but by Writing Selfhonestly self-forgiveness posts.

The dark side of my mind which affected my choices. I guess. Shining shadow Like a thin layer. Like strawberry sauce Draped over vanilla ice cream. 

Frightened, uncertain, questionable decisions made. I guess. As result in relation to others. Distrust dominated Where safe connections Failed. 

Heart-pain-determined-shyness. Monitored by critical eyes and a voice-over. Provides Images with emotional subtitles. 

It was easier to live in someone else's shadow instead being myself. Labels so I allowed myself that I could blame others. Choice-over. 

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