Day 729 I don't want

Actually see, what I Wish others should act differently as what I receive, then things go otherwise as expected. I realize the way I perceive is evil. It creates separation. 

Once I see how not to live, I actually need to see how to live, because what I assign is what I assume should go in a different way. What I in general assume that things will go wrong.

'What I complain after I observe corresponds with my indictment.' 


For a long time I was focused on things I missed, for example that I longed for unconditional love, understanding and support. Through my saviourship I wanted to be positively confirmed. I wanted to do good things but they were answered negatively by others, or not according to my wishes. I also thought people were talking gossip about me because I failed.

The worst became my Assumption 'I am and will be ridiculed, because on the other hand I just was longing for recognition and appreciation. I also missed Physical contact through cuddling by my parents. Somehow I learned myself I couldn't enjoy the things in life because I expect adversity. I was unhappy with my life.

I realize see and understand that I have always longed for peace and less for life. When I wake up in the morning, the first thing I Immediately think of is that I want go to sleep like I do in the evening. 

I commit myself that it's better recognize what my eyes see in here, than the yearning of desire; that too is vain and chasing after the wind. Yes talking and thinking about it a lot adds to folly, lol. 

I realize, see and understand that it's better to be satisfied with what I have than longing for what I don't have yet. When I am not satisfied, I will act like the words and thoughts I have in mind. I complain because what I observe corresponds to my indictment. What I perceive touches my Dissatisfaction. I'm responding to what people are doing wrong in relation to my alignment with what's going to go wrong. 

Selfforgiveness 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself I assume I only will meet adversity in life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am responding to what people are doing wrong in relation to my alignment with what's going to go wrong. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I am not satisfied, I will act like the words and thoughts I have in mind. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I am not satisfied I focus on negativity. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed when I participate in the energy of negativity Behaving like a prosecutor. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I got used be-having as a prosecutor. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am the victim of the circumstances in my mind when I am not satisfied. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that the victim of the circumstances acts like a prosecutor. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have act like a prosecutor, partipating in then energy of the victim, as victim and prosecutor I tried to save the world. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I as procecutor
blamed and used the circumstances for being a victim, and then decided to disguise as to be the savior. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not see it's Better what the eyes see in here. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the yearning of desire; that too is vain and chasing after the wind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that where I desire for what I don't have now is useless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself what I desire what I don't have now, it's a useless discussion of my mind. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the more words and thoughts I use, the more my dissatisfaction increases. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself because I Can't enjoy the good because of my complaining. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself what I assign is what I assume that the things will go wrong. 

If and when I want to walk away from the things 'how they are Popping up around or inside me', then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize see and understand that I act like a prosecutor in relation to my alignment with what's going to go wrong. 

If and when I experience my relation as my alignment with what's going to go wrong, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

How the things are Popping up around or inside me, then, If I am honest, I can see, 'my mind intention, my mind acceptance or my mind allowance', what I assign to it. What I assign is what I assume, the things will go wrong. 

I commit myself Then, if I am honest, I can see, what I assign to it. 

Thanks for reading!

Reacties

Een reactie posten

Populaire posts van deze blog

Day 637 appointment.

Afbeelding
What is a convivial atmosphere, adjective: friendly; agreeable: a convivial atmosphere . fond of feasting, drinking, and merry company; jovial. of or befitting a feast; festive. The Appointment in my youth was, the agreement, arrangement, engagement, rendezvous, my parents learned me. What they learned me then I accepted to create a atmosphere of Conviviality.  On the other hand the atmosphere at home, which I experienced and interpret, for me it was very uncomfortable, uncertain, aggressive, in one word unhealthy.  When I stand equal with the meaning appointment,  which resonates with me then the word uncomfortable pops-up. Why should I believe that an appointment I made will stand? The appointment my parents told me creating Conviviality for the outerworld, for the customers, being good for them, and behind the Front door the opposite of Conviviality was the atmosphere, which I experienced as evil, unnatural, hypocrite and agressive!  Selfforgiveness ...
Meer lezen

Day 629 what is one's motivation for craving.

Craving  the motivation for craving is for example an subconscious idea which controls and reflects words, assumptions and thoughts within your mind. Why am I?’ will have the same influences from our   environment and our, reactions and behaviour to what we observe, try out and copy. We use the examples we follow to   justify why we behave in the same way.  An opinion, idea, a point within your mind, which tells you 'follow up my order', 'be submissive, you need to achieve what I tell', achieve me, as the meaning within craving explains, the examples of the 'craving personalities' Passionate desire.  The craving personality, what your mind Whisperer tells you to do. When you decide to follow up the mind instructor's story, instead staying sober, relapse Lurks around the corner. The story of the craver wich is supporting the Intakeurge, 'the urge to use, take-in', the use of the substance or behavior, compensation for what is missing . The LACK which...
Meer lezen

Day 688 how things can be done differently.

Afbeelding
The experience of how things can be experienced and done differently and how to undo the self-creational process that does not benefit self is done in reverse what one once created.  In one of my previous posts I spoke about the energy of failure and then missed the confidence to openly discuss and speak about the things which Worried me.  Which essentially made me apply an adjustment that didn't matched with what I wanted to discuss. I realize see and understand that I have accepted to adapt to instructions which were undermining my development of self-confidence, my experience of how things can be experienced. Selfforgiveness   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself expecting that things should be done differently when They deviate from my desire.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I need to undo my desire.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the self-creational process of desire d...
Meer lezen