Day 682 thinking illusion but I want what I can not.

Loss: 'thinking about I have less money to buy beautiful things', I can not Afford to spend more money. I do not own enough money to buy where I am longing for. I can 'not', I can = 'but I want' what I can not. 

It's like an optical illusion it tells you something different then what the reality reflects. But I want what I can not. 

optical illusion

Selfforgiveness 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I assume 'but I want what I can not'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I are assuming what I lost I will never get back any more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I think about what I lost.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I feel sad when I think about what I lost.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I when I feel sad I get depressed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I experience the energy of being depressed. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself also experience myself desperate when I am depressed. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in the same moment I physical experience a deep breath of sighing.

If and when I experience the energy of being depressed, then I Stop my thinking by taken a deep Breath.

I realize see and understand that when I take a deep breath my experience of being depressed Stops.

I realize see and understand that when I experience the energy of being desperate because I think about of all the things I lost.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that my experience of Loss reflects my expectation, that's why I feel depressed 'I do not like it that I can not control the situation and feel miserable about it, feel ashamed and I like to get back what I've lost.

For context please see my previous post.

If and when I experience the energy of being miserable, then I Stop myself and Breath.

I realize see and understand when I experience the energy of being miserable, I know that I desire for alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I have no goal in mind experience myself 'I'm bored', being bored compare with experiencing myself miserable.

If and when I compare bored with miserable, then I Stop myself and Breath.

If and when I physical experience a deep breath of sighing, then I Stop myself and Breath.

I realize see and understand if I physical experience a deep breath of sighing, then I'm disgusted with myself.

If I am Disgusted, then I Stop myself and Breath.

'But: If I want what I can not', then I Stop myself and Breath.

I realize see and understand 'But: If I want what I can not', it is the manifestation of illusion.

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