Day 716 I feel sorry for her.

In this post I look at my desire for unconditional involvement. For context please see my previous post. 

I realize see and understand that I've noticed a few times already after I visit my mother when I say goodbye to her and look at her when I leave her place, then I'll feel sorry for her.

It's okay for me to feel sorry for her Because I feel the energy of guilt when I think back at the injustice she's been through.

Selfforgiveness 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I feel the energy of the emotion guilt when I think back at the injustice she's been through.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I think back at the injustice she's been through then I feel ashamed. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I also in the past experienced the energy of anger because I didn't understand her choice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I think back at the injustice she's been through then I feel ashamed. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I feel ashamed and think 'this involment is what I have longed for'. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I was longing for some one who was show me I am involved by your life experiences. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I was longing for the experience of involvement as an understanding of what I have experienced as a loss. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I experienced the energy of loss Its because I am longing for the energy that I receive involved support. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I missed unconditional involvement. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself I was assuming what I deserve to receive, what I have experienced as a loss, is unconditional involment. 

If and when I am longing for unconditional involvement, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize see and understand where I desire for is that I expect to receive unconditional involvement.

I realize see and understand where I feel sorry for my mother is that I want to give her my unconditional Involvement.  

I realize see and understand that what I want to receive is what I have to give. 

I realize see and understand that if I am longing for the energy that I receive involved support from others That I make myself dependent on the involvement of others to achieve something of a purpose. 

I commit myself to continue my proces. 

Thanks for reading! 





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