Day 676 when I assume you are cheating on me.

In my previous post I realize see and understand when I assume you should be available, I want you to do so 'Right now'. And think about what is going on in the other, ME!
My unwritten assumption which I accepted and allowed myself to exist as an agreement within my mind. Do you really interested what is going on in my mind? 

An Assumption that people should be available for me when I assume, expect and think they should be. 

They should be available If I ask for it. What I actually expect is them to do in here 'Right now' is to be available and listen to me. What they told me to do. I had to listen, be polite, understanding and Accessible So that I would fulfill the needs of others. 

Selfforgiveness 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself expecting: 'You should be available right now'. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself Assuming this Mandatory condition 'You should be available right now'. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I made an decision as a child to assume because they are not available parents should be available right now. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking because they are not available they do not respect the unwritten agreement in my mind. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself assuming If they do not respect the unwritten agreement which I created in my mind, Then they do not unconditional Support me. 

If and when I assume they do not unconditional Support me, then I assume they cheated on me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I assume they do not unconditional Support me, then It is logical that they cheated on me. 

If and when I suppose they cheated on me, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking people should be available, actually expect them to be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking that people shoud know how the should treat others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I expect people should be available If I think and not always ask for it and actually expect them to be.

If and when I expect people should and not ask to be available, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself I do not have the ability to accept realistic limitations in life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself because of this trap I feel special. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I insist that I always want to get my way immediately. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I experience the energy of Being ignored and then want my way immediately. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have unrealistically high expectations. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I do not listen attentively, to disprove or deny the emotional experiences of A so that A begins to question and doubt herself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am not emotionally attuned to A. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am no mirror to held up and no positive reflection is shared with A about her feelings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I did not developed this myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that developing a positive sense of self-esteem also becomes a major challenge for me. 

If and when I reflect the energy of Distrust, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize see and understand that I start laughing when I reflect the energy of Distrust. 

If and when I start laughing because I experience the energy of distrust, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking people should be available for me at any time when I ask for it.

If and when I order people should be available, then I Stop myself and Breath.

I realize, see and understand its a imposibble demen to order people to be avaialble at moments when I'm longing someting I want rigth now.

I commit myself If and when I suppose they cheated on me, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

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