Day 664 craving the idea of receiving disapproval.

Craving
Longing, motivation, reason. When rejection is expected, it is not easy to interact with others in an open and neutral manner. Which toxic thoughts do I experience most often? 

I think that my living environment will evoke Criticism and rejection In the mind of people who visit me, lol! 

Without realizing it, we tumble into our own beliefs, pitfalls and 'issues'. We view the world from the perspective of rejection, threat, fear and uncertainty. These beliefs color and re-direct the way we view the world.

Tumble into our own beliefs. 

M doesn't visit me because the entrance to the flat Where I live according to M looks Dark and Grey. That's why M doesn't visit me. I experience M's arguments as rejection. Rejection of me as a person. 

I'm expecting a visit tomorrow. I'm already working on the idea, since yesterday, That I take into account the fact: 'I will receive criticism and disapproval. I succumb because of my idea that I will be rejected'. How people criticize and below my environment, I translate as rejection of me as a person. 

To avoid this rejection, I avoid the person, Push this person away, Ignore this person, ignore and push people away, With the recurring result That I stay behind alone. This conclusion allows myself that I have accepted that I feel lonely and alone Because I push people away, criticize them, assuming they will reject me. 

This energy of rejection, disapproval and disappointment Is known within my mind. This energy of rejection and pushing people away I generate myself. I generate the energy of rejection by my idea and thinking about I am expecting rejection. I assume rejection. 

Selfforgiveness 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself Because I don't want to be rejected by someone else, I reject the other. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I allow myself I can manifest the energy of rejection. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself Because of my participation in the idea 'I am A person who expects and assumes rejection. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that's the reason why I will be rejected'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I view the world from the perspective of rejection, threat fear and uncertainty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that These beliefs color and re-direct the way I view the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that This energy of rejection, disapproval and disappointment is information about knowledge within my mind. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that what I expect will happen. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I assume that I will be rejected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I reject people before they can reject me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I anticipate within the danger of rejection.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I Have developed the perception of failure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I Look for reasons that are separate from the actual event. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking that I expect rejection within the event to come. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself assuming within the actual event to come - I will be rejected. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself When I assume 'rejection is expected', then I have to accept that it is not easy for me to interact with others in an open and neutral manner. 

If and when then
If and when I participate in the energy of rejection, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize see and understand that I accepted disapproval and disappointment as information, which became the knowledge within my mind. 

I commit myself that I need to be transparent about my selffullfilling prophecy. 


I also feelt bad one day at school. 


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