Day 720 nurture.

In my previous post I wrote: 'I missed healthy nurturing' as words in my mind I described my experience. 

I realize see and understand that I was never in the navy to fight but to protect others.

Rescue: liberate, deliver, rid, rescue, redeem, set free. 

The illusion of strength and consequences started her development, creation and employment within my mind Here. 

That they shouldn't experience harm but what's the best way, find possibilities, instead being neglected from nurturing and allowed to receive what is needed for nurturing. 

Rescuer Caused by my experience that I missed healthy care and nurturing because I realize see and understand that I was experiencing bitterness and resentment. 

The environment wherein I grew up was Unfavorable, expressing or showing a lack of approval or support.

Resentment (also called rankresentment bitterness) is a complex, multilayered emotion that has been described as a mixture of disappointment, disgust, anger, and fear.

I wanted to restore peace through doing the good, restore my mood of resentment, bitterness, anger and fear. 

Because of the missing: 'expressing or showing a lack of approval or support', I was the target of unfavorable Circumstances. 

The opposite of unfavorable is positive. The word positive means consisting in or characterized by the presence or possession of features or qualities rather than there absences. 

Bitterness lack of sweetness, bitter indignation at having been treated unfairly. 

Selfforgiveness 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I developed Bitterness as the result of lack of sweetness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I experienced a lack of sweetness (understanding, healthy nurturing), which became, sorted out as my interpretation and observations of bitter indignation at having been treated unfairly. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I developed a sense of bitter indignation at having been treated unfairly. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I was angry because I suppose I'm having been treated unfairly. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that If I suppose I'm having been treated unfairly then I experience the energy of anger. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself I started thinking I am the target of lack of approval or support. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I showed my environment the opposite of unfavorable. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I was thinking it's positive  because of missing healthy nurturing I showed my environment the opposite of unfavorable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I subordinated me to my resentment shown the opposite of unfavorable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I supp the energy of a mixture of disappointment, disgust, anger, and fear which became the energy of bitterness and resentment. 

Positive 

The word positive means consisting in or characterized by the presence or possession of features or qualities rather than there absences. The points of resentment and bitterness need to be write out first. Because positivety does not stop the darkness in me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I was acting like a Rescuer because I missed healthy nurturing. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I became a Savior personality caused by my experience that I missed healthy care and nurturing. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I feel anger because Both of my parents have denied mistreating me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I Disappointed that Both of my parents have denied mistreating me never said sorry and Never talked about conflicting situations. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I started thinking My existence is denied. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I became a savior personality thinking I am responsible for increasing well-being. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself I became responsible for increasing well-being because I thought I had to earn this first. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I was assuming I have to earn healthy nurturing first. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I was thinking to earn healthy nurturing first by giving. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I was thinking I am responsible to achieve, give others first what I want to receive. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that to give others first what I wanted to receive was because I was missing healthy nurturing. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I was Disillusioned by the lack of what I wanted to receive. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I experience the energy of Disillusionment. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I experience this way in the sense that I now perceive the world to be a rather cold and harsh place, filled with people who only mind their own interests.

I realize see and understand that I started Assuming the world is a place which only/in-general is filled with people who only mind their own interests.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I got Seperated from my innocence Beingness by the energy of Disillusionment. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I experience the energy of resentment which I tried to change provide someone, others with entertainment and enjoyment. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I was experiencing the energie of bitterness and instead speak about it I provide someone, others with entertainment and enjoyment. 

If and when I am assuming my existence is denied, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize see and understand that I am assuming my existence is denied, I have no goal, no self value about that what tells me, shows me the point on the horizon which direction I want to go. I am useless. 

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