Day 655 I want to achieve the things which I assume.

I want to achieve the things which I have in mind. In relation to others, those who are excessively produce loud noises, for instance screaming and banging on the floor, I realize see and understand: it's my desire, my goal, my expectation as the words I use, my Demands which I have in mind: 'instead that they are producing loud noises they need to be quiet and act respectful.'  

My goal is what I assume. 

In general, what I experience and want to manage is my idea: I have problems, my focus at goals, my tendency to be and think is: 'It is my tendency to be and think like the trouble character - I live to find problems'. I am always on the lookout and alert for danger. I quickly distrust. 'My life is difficult. 

Write yourself to freedom. 

Selfforgiveness 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I assume my life is difficult. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that instead producing loud noises people should be quiet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking people who act quiet they are respectful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking people who not act quiet they are not respectful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I suspect that people should act the way, as my goals, which I have in mind. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking 'in relation with my goal' you should behave and be quiet because I don't like hard noises'. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I assume: 'they should be quiet and act respectful, the way my parents told me I had to behave.' 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking they act not respectful. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I start thinking and blaming them: 'they are producing hard noises' that's why I experience the energy of being offended. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a result that I have the goal in mind 'they should be quiet and act respectful', what they ignore, that's why I experience the energy of being offended. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I experience the energy of being offended Because I think my neighbors behave aggressively. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I Associate loud noises and shouting with aggression and violence. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking they do not learned to be respectful. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking they are producing hard noises and they do not feel responsible for My well-being. 

I realize see and understand that I Don't  dare to ask if the neighbors will be calm and instead they producing hard noises and because I suspect and think 'they will react aggressively', in response to my question do you want to act quiet, calm and respectful. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I Don't dare to ask if the neighbors will be calm. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking instead being quiet they are aggressive. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking in response to my question do you want to act quiet, calm and respectful they will be aggressive. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking they produce hard noises so they are not interested what I experience. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I feel ashamed because I am thinking 'they are not interested what I experience.'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I not dare to ask my neighbors to be quiet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I assume that they will react aggressive when I ask them to be quiet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have in mind 'if I ask a question, I suspect they will react with with aggression or they behave Sarcastic. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I participate in the assumption they will react aggressive if I ask to be quiet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking 'they are not Quiet, but they should be', then experience the energy of offended and act annoyed.

If and when....... then I Stop myself and Breath, (If I'm provoked by something outside of myself that triggers something in myself).

If and when I feel offended and act annoyed, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize, see and understand that I experience the energy of offended and being annoyed because I desire that they need to be quiet because hard noises makes me feel anxious because I am also afraid to ask the neighbors to be quiet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself before I decide to go and ask my question 'please will you be quiet', within my mind I already suspect and then experience the energy of the emotion fear, and then experience the tension of fear and cynicism within my body and Beingness because I am thinking 'those neighbors will not be quiet and instead the act with cynism or aggressively.'

If and when, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

If and when I suspect that people should act the way I have in mind, then I Stop myself and Breath. 

I realize see and understand when I suspect that people should act the way I have in mind, are the things, mostly represents my goals, which I expect and desire for. Instead loud noises I accepted and allowed myself that I am Longing for Peace and quietness around me.

I realize see and understand that I'm scared of loud noises and often I don't want to go to my house because I am thinking there it's unsafe.

I commit myself - 'If and when I assume my life is difficult, then I Stop myself and Breath'. 

I realize see and understand when I experience the energy of Insecurity in my body and Beingness, I Experience this energy of uncertainty in my stomach and Jaw, Like I want to vomit. 

I also experience this energy in my legs in a way as if I can no longer move or walk away. It looks like my body is freezing. That's why I prefer to crawl away in a corner. Hiding myself from the expected incoming danger. As soon as I experience myself unsafe I avoid contact. I assume that No one will really listen to me and show me some understanding and I distrust them to help me. I'm All alone, lonely and alone. I am wary, programmed and alert to danger.

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